The process of making a blog is exhausting

 

   I am already super exhausted from working on my blog. Its original incarnation was blue with a black and white leporard print. Like suer gyaru and colorful......But it hurt my eyes like crazy OMG. Im gonna just make my blog super brown with Rilakkumas everywhere.

I really love Rilakkuma so I wouldnt mind this blog being both about gyaru and rilakkuma and friends 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖🐻

First Post

 This is my first blog post! Omg! Gosh I am not sure what to say. 

I guess I can say whatever I want because this blog is my empty room. My realm of self expression.
As I am typing this.. I wonder to myself. Why start now? Why make a Gyaru blog when gyaru is basically dead. most people don't even blog anymore. I kinda came to the Party 10 years too late.

I guess I just do things whenever I am ready and not when it is most popular.

I barely remember when I discovered gyaru I guess i mightve been 14 and even then, it was definitely dead besides a few gyarusas I would stalk online. One of the most influential people who peeked my interest in gyaru was Cheesies, (Cheeserland blogs) and Tsubasa Masuwaka's existence.

I remember thinking back then how badly I wanted to be a gyaru, I wanted to bleach my hair get circle lenses etc etc. But by the time I entered adulthood it seemed unrealistic, I did of course dress pretty colorful and dress kindof gyaru inspired. But I feel I did not become a true gyaru.
Tbh I was scared.

The look that gyarus have can be so overwhelming in real life. And especially on me! The strong makeup, eyelashes, light colored, hair, suddenly made me nervous. What if people dont understand what I am doing and just think I am crazy.
And then at the time the growing popularity of Ulzzang looks and Larme Fashion. I felt my interest in the brightly colored spectacle of gyaru dim, and my interest in looking dolly and soft and natural looking (the exceptable looks.) THat grew.

But interestingly enough I feel I was never quite as ulzzang or larme as I had ever been compared to gyaru.

I often wonder now what is it about Gyaru that had such a hold onto me that I found myself currently returning more invested then ever in the style.

well tbh my life fell apart.

I have few friends. all My relationships failed. And I flunked out of college. Interestingly enough I followed the rules of life. I existed poshly and styled myself accordingly to what makes my parents comfortable and society comfortable. 
I now understand in my own way why the Gyarus bleached there hair or dyed it neon colors, and wore crazy nails and fashion. To defy the rules of social pressure. Defy the expectations to exist to make others comfortable. And to live for your own passions, hobbies and joys.
 iF i had lived to make myself truly happy. I wonder how my life wouldve been,

Since life goes by so quickly I want to start now!
And I start by creating this blog. Please enjoy my growth into becoming a true gyaru. 
​Also sorry for my horrible grammar.
thanks for reading